Nick Kyrgios has revealed his battle with major depression and substance abuse in a mental health social media post. The Australian tennis entertainer spoke about one of the “darkest periods” of his life around the 2019 Australian Open.
The 26-year-old said he was struggling so much that he resorted to self-harm. “Most would assume that I was doing well mentally or enjoying my life… it was one of my darkest periods,” Kyrgios wrote on Instagram, accompanied by a photo of him in training.
“If you look closely, on my right arm you can see my self-harm. I was having suicidal thoughts and literally struggling to get out of bed, let alone playing in front of millions.
“I was lonely, depressed, negative, abusing alcohol, drugs, alienating family and friends. He felt that he could not speak or trust anyone. This was a result of not opening up and refusing to lean on my loved ones and just slowly making an effort to be positive.
“I know that day to day life can seem extremely tiring, impossible at times. I understand that you feel that if you open up, you may feel weak or scared. I’m telling you right now, it’s okay, you’re not alone.
“I’ve been through those times where it seemed like those positive energetic vibes were never going to come true.”
Kyrgios, who had an extraordinary run at the Australian Open with Thanasi Kokkinakis to claim an unlikely doubles title last month, said he was in a much better place in his life now.
“I am proud to say that I have completely changed and have a completely different perspective on everything, I do not take a moment for granted. I want you to be able to reach your full potential and smile. This life is beautiful.”